Life goes on

I went to Missouri on Wednesday morning and spent the day with my family and with my grandmother. None of the other family had arrived yet and I was able to spend some nice quiet time with just my grandmother, mother and one aunt. My sister and niece also came for a short time and it was great to be able to see them again as well. Thursday morning more of the cousin's arrived and we made our way to the funeral home for a private viewing. They did a really amazing job with grandpa and we decided that the public viewing that evening could be open casket so friends could say goodbye. The funeral was at 2 pm on Friday. It again was a very nice and beautiful service. Grandma had asked that the grandchildren sing a couple of songs. We sang Amazing Grace and All the Way My Savior Leads Me. As a congregation we sang Jesus Loves Me. He was laid to rest in the cemetery, and as he would have loved, his plot is under a huge tree. I love my grandpa more than I could ever express, and I will miss him deeply. Life goes on, even though at the time you aren't sure how. I returned to work yesterday, and was kind of numb most of the day. Church service this morning was especially hard for me. The song chosen for the choir to sing was a remix of Jesus Loves Me. I broke down in the choir room but was able to hold it together during the service itself. Our comfort is knowing that grandpa is in Heaven with my Lord and Savior, his Abba and mine. I love you grandpa!

Sad day today.

Mom called and told me that my grandfather had been hit by a car while taking his morning walk. He passed quickly and without long suffering. He was an amazing man. He was a faithful man of God. He loved his family with all he had, and never thought of himself first. I remember helping him water his plants in his greenhouse, picking up peacock feathers from the bird house. Listening to classical music while helping his customers. I remember playing card games with him and grandma and watching them set a wonderful example of how and man and woman should love one another in marriage. He was real, he was dedicated, and he will be deeply, deeply missed.

Life

Life can be so difficult. One minute you are just living life and everything is great. The next thing you know, with one word, your whole life is changed and spins out of control. My boss is feeling this right now, and I feel for him and his family. I wish there was more I could do for them, something I could say to make a difference, something I could make to lift their spirits. I wait for the nudging of the Lord to lead me in the right direction, for the right thing to do or say. Things at work at the same ol same old junk. Gossip, rumors, anger, and resentment. I wish we could all just be adults and do our work and leave the drama at home. People are threatening to quit over stupid insignificant things.

I go see an ear nose throat doctor Wednesday about my deviated septum and nasal problems. It's going to be a very painful surgery, but I think well worth it in the long run *I hope* and I'll be able to stop taking all these medications to help me breath. I also go back to school again soon, hoping to finally get my degree and have that one piece of paper that so far has eluded me all these years. School begins August 13th, and I look forward to taking yet one more step closer to the ultimate goal of graduation.

New stage in my life

Enrolling in school this fall at RSU. Just taking a couple of classes, but it's a start to hopefully the end of my schooling. I changed my degree to Organizational Leadership. It's a degree geared for older students with more than 72 hours of credit who never finished their degrees. It's more business focused, but will allow me to complete my degree online, and still continue to work full time. The program classes are 8 weeks long, so you can take two of those per semester with a regular class and not be overloaded. Sounds perfect to me, let's hope I still feel that way after this semester is over with. My only concern is me working retail during the fall Christmas season and trying to take classes at the same time. I'm sure I'll be able to manage, I am a survivor after all :)

Living in Oklahoma has it's ups and downs. It's hot in the summer and can still be bitter cold in the winter. Still working full time at Hobby Lobby, but this fall am going to go back to school, trying yet again to finally get a piece of paper saying I have accomplished at least one thing.